Broken
By Maria Sharon Moemise
For every word I spake he criticized and mocked
I learnt a new one to prove that I rocked
For every blow that he struck across my face
I felt worthless and got thrown in a dark place
With every step I took to move toward the light
I had my legs kicked from under me so I don't take flight
Every drop of tear I spilled in pain rocked me to the core
while he pushed me, mocked me and broke me some more
I crawled into my dark world where I dreamt of light
I dreamt of surrendering to sounds and sights of night
Yearning to just give in to the constant drumming in my head,
where his fists pounded endlessly, leaving only dark dread.
I took what I thought was an easy way out
the empty pill bottle, alcohol and me floating on a cloud
of misery, hopelessness and lots of self hate
for the pathetic life I held onto merely through fate.
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Author:
SharonMoemise (
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- Comment from author about the poem: I wrote this poem to remind myself that what I went through at the the hands of a loved one, was not how I envisioned my life, but how I eventually came to expect it to pan out. It was wrong from every angle, yet I gained strength and wisdom from it. How can something so morally wrong bring so much insight to one? The weakness in me at the time also brought out the intellectual within me. The brute strength my abuser felt within him at the time, also brought forth his stupidity and cowardice. I was a victim, then I stopped being one. Instead, everytime my abuser looked at me, he must not have seen a strong man, but rather questioned his own actions. By writing this poem, I'm laying the foundation for forgiveness. I forgive you, though I'll never forget.
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Ohhhhhhhhhh SHARON ~ this made me angry and sad ! You are much too beautiful and precious to be ever treated in this way I If you were my LADY I would lavish you with TLC and pleasure you with a velvet glove to release all your tension and pain. Thanks for caring and sharing ~ I am thrilled fate released you from your "cloud of misery ~ hopelessness ~ self hate !" Thinking of you and Praying for you ~ Love & Hugs ~ BRIAN I know that sharing this will be CATHARTIC ~ please check my poems ~ Thanks B (UK)
Oh wow!!! Where have you been all my life??? Thank you for the great comment, B. I felt that by talking about it, really helped me and hoping that by bringing it out in poetic form, it'll help others to speak out before its to late to get away. 😚
Sad, sad situation. Hope you found a way out. Great write though
Thank you, Tony. I did find a way out. Thanks for your sincere comment.
Welcome.
We can only attempt to try and understand this type of pain, if we haven't experienced it ourselves and from my attempt, you are a fantastic intelligent lady. So well done, I loved this. And so much courage - I admire you for your ways
Oh wow! Your comment is truly encouraging. Thank you so so much, Elsiewarrenswords. Thank you
I always seem to gravitate more towards works created from the pain of hard times and bad experiences. I am so glad you found the courage to turn this terrible situation around. You took a part of it and turned it into a piece of beauty. Your strength is inspirational xx
You're too kind. Thank you.
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