fade away

i thought I’ve seen everything 

i thought i’ve felt the fangs 

i fall so easily 

my internal wings can’t hold for eternity 

i needed forever 

i got a week 

its not my fault 

my mind was twisted 

my soul was eclipsed 

i can’t see anymore 

all i have is luck 

you were the luckiest hing i had 

i wasn’t the only girl you were leaving you mark on 

all i can remember is your lips caressing my neck 

and the strength of your hands around my waist 

the feeling i had forgotten 

the first person i had truly opened up to beyond the first person to leave me 

beyond my mother who’s seethes me 

alcohol releasing me 

it doesn’t hold me 

everything hurts me 

i just want to climb to the top of of my city and scream 

but thats just a dream 

i erase you but i can’t erase her 

I’ve been used so much 

but yet I’m not afraid 

not afraid of death 

afraid of eternity 

without hope

without rest 

so tell me again 

tell me you know 

don’t act surprised 

i thought you knew 

knew what it feels like to be internally shattered 

don’t be flattered 

you’ve been dead for years 

i just died within months 

no one was there for you 

figured you knew 

stay in your bubble 

ill fly in mine 

guess you had to draw a line 

throw up a wall 

mines been up since day 1 

i let it down for a day 

and all the sudden im shattered again

but thats okay

sooner or later ill fade away