A burden

Silently sitting at the table

Mind manners

Do not move out of place

Make no sound

We work without words

We speak in our minds

We cry in our hearts

We move without meaning

Think nothing of yourself

That is what is drilled into me

Since day one, for both of us

Everything, for everyone else

I smile and walk as if

I'm not suffering inside

I'm okay, I am normal

Just like you, yeah, like you

You ask, I do 

If I don't, I suffer

But it leads to being used

Using my weakness

I walk in straight lines

I speak, never stutter 

My heart is locked

Just as it was, so long ago

Another day, just the same

You walked in, a ray of light

Full of energy, enthusiasm

I'm not like you, You're okay

I turn away, my heart must remain

Locked, sealed, no one will know

That's okay, I'm like you, yeah, just like you

Never burden others, because that's what I am

But you knocked on the door

That small ray of light

You're chipping away

You're taking my hands

You can't know

My burden.

You can't see

The scars on my back.

Because you're still okay

By not telling, will you hate me?

Will telling you be a burden?

Or will it be a burden to keep quiet?

My thoughts are so lost

The pain is getting worse

Why is it a crime, to burden?

Isn't that life?

That small ray of light

You're changing me

Is that okay?

Aren't I a burden?

Born and raised

One might call

A professional wallflower

Only noticed when wanted

The ray of light has grown

She is the sun

A ball of light, so bright

But I cannot shield my eyes

I can't look away

It's so beautiful

My lock is gone

Stone walls have fallen

I should have looked deeper

For she has scars too

But she can move on

While I trail behind

She can't be mine

She is life

Showing the world her scars

While I cover my marks

But she is saying I'm hers

Is it a burden to belong?

I wish I could caste these thoughts away

I need to tear from the past

For her

For him

For me

For them

I think I'm okay

But I'm not like you, no

I am the shadow, the dark

That comes after the sun, always close behind