roller coaster

Ever been so emotional you dont know what to feel first

Like a roller coaster, or an ongoing curse

No matter what i do, no matter what i say

That lump in my throat, it wont go away

None of these emotions i want to stay

Im done with it, i no longer want to play. 

These feelings inside, they tare me apart

Like a dagger in the heart, sharp

To know myself i need to know my pain,  the only way it will go away

But why do we have to feel so deeply, i want to go back to being secretly

Crying behind closed doors, or down to the ocean  the ultimate cries as the water hits the shores

But to go there i would have to take a step back from where i am, Fear is telling me I can

I know i should not listen to those words, i can go back, i can go back. 

Fear is nothing I lack

But to be brave i must have fear, i must break threw the doors

Stare fear right in the eyes and Steer