Distant Memory

I was so afraid of losing you. I didn't realize you weren't even mine. I wanted you so bad. I forced myself to believe the lies. I was so busy chasing you. That I lost myself. You drove me insane. You were bad for my health. And like the wind being knocked out of me. You took my breath away. I tried to cut you off. But couldn't even say it. And like kryptonite. You always made me weak. The words never came out. Because I couldn't even speak. And now I think I broke you. But you broke me first. It's not my fault you wasn't a man of your word. I guess it's not fun when the tables are turned. I didn't ask for much. But you wanted everything. I went out my way for you. But it was you I could never please. You failed to realize, I didn't lose you, you lost me. You were the winner. I was the prize. But clearly you didn't value me. I was an open book. Yet you still couldn't read me. I guess you were too busy playing and deceiving me. Even when you started to change. You gave me the blame. So now when ya text come through. It's just a number, no name. You tried to hurt my feelings. By saying I can't think. But you forgot one major thing. I'm strong, never been weak. You can't feed the lies to someone who won't listen. You had me in my feelings. Now I'm tired of your existence. You had me for a minute. I completely played your fool. But you had it screwed up. Cause I ain't one you should lose. And since life goes on. You no longer exist. I was the table. So I'm everything that you'll miss. I'm glad I finally made it. To the point of no return. This is coming to an end. I've decided to leave you alone.