Exposure

I was once a social butterfly

Bouncing around from flower to flower

Never resting in one spot for any longer than I had to

Now, it's like that person is dead

Always in the same place

Fear overcomes my will to tread anywhere

I am back in my cocoon

Wondering if I am able to change back into a creepy caterpillar

I suppose that it is natural for this to occur, since I have not made use of my wings in so long

Silence

Has over-shadowed

My song

Still, even in all my loneliness, I still go out of my way to make myself sing

I can hear the bells of freedom ringing clearly

I did nothing to deserve all of this, and that alone is why I know that this is not really my fate

I have forgotten my love for the guardians of the frozen gate

Now, I sit here in limbo everyday

For, I have nothing else to do but wait

My metamorphosis is on hold until I can correctly formulate a picture in my mind of what I wish to become

I am numb

I am blind

I am seriously so far behind

I have been cracked wide open like an egg, oozing all of the phlegm that once protected my yolk

Exposing all I have forever kept hidden

So that these parasites I am over-ridden with can see that they are wrong

I am only what I have said that I am all along

This bitter chase

I have always worn the exact truth proudly upon my face

Ok, you won!

You have managed to make me feel like a disgrace

So, now, get the fuck up out of my way so that I can change that

I have every fucking right to live

I have nothing left to be envious of

No sympathy left to give

There it is, my great exposure

The one you have all so desperately have wanted to see

I am so sorry to have disappointed you all

I have never been anyone but me

I have never had any reason to hide

I have never lied to any of you until now...

8/21/2014