I can't seem to comprehend the places I've been.
Or the things that I've done, was it all just for the fun?
Or was it just for my own stupid game and put everyone else at blame..
Could I really be crazy, have a screw loose?
Is it bad that most of my thoughts lead to a noose..
They say life is all sunshine and rainbows
Then why am I stuck here locked inside my head with a deadbolt?
No pain? No suffering?
Not me, my life just is constantly buffering.
They say I'm just a teen going through a phase.
Hate to tell em I'm not playing games.
This is real life my emotions..
Don't believe me?
Pull up my sleeve and watch me bleed!
Okay this is getting a little deep
Not gonna lie I hate what I've become
But what's done is done.
Being crazy isn't so bad
But I feel really awful for my dad.
He deserves more then me..
Sad it turned out this way
But what else can I say?!
Sorry doesn't cut it no more!!
All i beg for, urn for, is that love before I fucked up.
But now I just sit here and twittle my thumbs
Nothing will ever make the enternal pain go away
Oh no that shits here to stay..
So as I sit here lost in my thoughts it's time to get head right
No matter the cost..
Fake it to make it?
That's what I'm told..
So that's what I'll do.
My life written in bold....
- Author: lost-but-not-broken17 ( Offline)
- Published: February 28th, 2017 13:23
- Comment from author about the poem: I'm in such a dark place right now...
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Comments2
Well written and expressed
Thank you
Welcome
Good strong write, but don't despair, your troubles will have made you stronger and you will be able to find your way easier as each day passes. As Damaged Soul has said you WILL find love.
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