Loves sake

I feel lost, lonely and afraid,
In the maze that is my brain,
Complex and brutally strict,
It strikes with every whip.

The fear of being alone,
Makes it harder to come home.
I feel like part of me is missing,
And yet all I see is kissing,
Everywhere I see,
And where's the women for me?
A keeper, the one, my partner in crime,
The one I want to breathe with, until the day I die.

Is it them or is it me?
I just want the answer, what ever it may be.

I lay in bed, one arm under my pillow,
I dream of a chance to carve into a willow,
It lives for years, doesn't move or break,
All I want is one more try,
for loves sake.