Afraid to Show

A dark sense of being senseless
A pain that is relentless
Breaking down your mentalness
No you didn’t wish for this
You wonder where your happy went
Get so angry and need to vent
All your money and time are spent
Pocket filled with only lint.
A deceitful cloud is clouding your mind
Taking hold; putting you in a bind
Losing yourself; never find
You’ve left you behind
Something went wrong somewhere
You began to no longer care
You learned that life was unfair
Now you feel empty and bare.
A continuous feeling that you’re all alone
Wishing, hoping, and wanting it all to be gone
Waiting for the real you to be shown
Feeling the pain down to the bone
You lost yourself a long time ago
And you feel you will never know
The child inside that didn’t grow
Hiding away afraid to show.