My eyes glistening with tears,
But not yet fallen.
I'm crying, but they're silent tears.
I'm crying on the inside so you are unable to see
All the pain running though me.
I never sleep,
For fear of what tomorrow might bring.
How can I be so lost
In a place I know so well?
How can I be so broken
In a family so together?
How can I be so confused
Surrounded by so many?
Always forced to fight.
A fight I never seem to win.
God only knows such a fact.
I've fought for so long.
When will this ever end?
Sometimes I walk past everyone as if I were invisible.
Everything's moving with no place to go.
I tell myself that everything's going to be ok,
But it's Cancer.
The time it took to change me.
The life I had, I can't have back.
Yet I can't see why all these tears feel so unreal.
I'm not the same, my words are still unsaid.
So instead, I write them on paper.
What I hide is buried deep within me.
So many tears I have shed in the dark,
Hidden away in the privacy of my own thoughts,
Only to be shelved with morning's first light
Because of no courage to speak of my pain.
And it hurts to know that I'll never be the same,
Knowing I'll never be the girl I used to be.
If you only knew what I've been through,
Or maybe you could take a walk in my shoes,
Because this is sometimes how I feel
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- Comment from author about the poem: I'm just not who I was before the monster took me..
- Category: Reflection
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good write i can relate
thank you(:
i have no problem telling the truth for tis easier then adding to the web of lies i weave
young LADY, YOU WILL SEE LATER ON HOW MUCH YOU ARE IN CONTROL OF EVERYTHING YOU SPEAK OF HERE...ESPECIALLY WHEN IT COMES TO PHYSICAL AILMENTS THAT ARE YOUR OWN...yOU ARE THE BEST HEALER YOU COULD EVER FIND, ALONG WITH A STRONG BELIEF IN AN OMNIPOTENT CRERATOR, GOD, WHATEVER YOU WANT TO CALL IT ...FAITH AND BELIEF IN ALL THINGS POSITIVE ARE WHAT THE SECRET IS...FOCUS ON WHAT YOU WANT TO ACHIEVE, AND FORGET ABOUT THE THINGS THAT YOU DO NOT WANT TO INTERVENE...BECAUSE IF YOU AKNOWLEDGE THOSE THINGS, THEY MANIFEST ...THE MIND IS A VERY VERY POWERFUL ENTITY AND YOU ARE AT THE CONTROL PANEL OF IT...XXX
PLEASE EXCUSE THE TYPOS..
This couldn't be anymore true.. thank you!!
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Good strong write, your mind is still strong and can fight this battle.
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