Antoinette

It only gets worse.

Now, don't go on lying to me. 

Talking about how life gets easier.

Spouting all that rubbish about how the only way to go is up.

How do I know when I've hit rock bottom anyway?

Oh I'll tell you how,

Rock bottom is when it becomes exhausting to live.  

When it takes so much out of you to go 

Through the day constantly feeling 

That banging in your head telling you 

That you'll never get anywhere. 

You're not worth anything. 

No one wants you. No one cares. 

But that's not even the worst part. 

No, because even if anyone does care

You don't even care anymore. You don't

Want to live in this hell hole. 

You don't want to continue being overwhelmed 

By it all. The constant fighting to survive, 

The never ending loss. 

And, of course, it's raining out side. 

There's this anger brewing in your blood, 

Telling you that you might as well give up. 

You want to punch and kick and scream 

And yell 

And fight

And burn 

And rip the heads off the dolls. 

But you don't, not because every one's spouted their lies:

"It's going to be all right, stay strong". 

But because you just can't be bothered anymore. 

Then you realise, while you've been trying to find the light, 

constantly searching for something good, then waiting for it to 

Come to you like they say...

It only gets worse. 

Because rock bottom doesn't exist. 

The universe is so expansive that we don't know how far down even is. 

That's the truth. 

Pretend you're happy but you won't fool me. 

I know the truth, I know that this life is a tale of misery and failure. 

On top of that:

It continued to get worse. 

Comments3

  • lost-but-not-broken17

    all I could say was wow.. this gave me chills. amazing write.

    • Antoinette

      Wow thank you so much. xx

    • Hopey_xx

      This sent shivers down my spine, I really don't know what to say, but great write!

      • Antoinette

        Thank you!!! XXX

      • Goldfinch60

        Very strong write. Emotions of all types can be shed onto paper with words, this is what you have done with this write. May your life be better after this write.



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