The Pain I Feel Inside

The pain I feel inside
Runs down deep into my soul
Nothing there but an empty hole
There’s nothing left to find.
I wish I could make it go away
I don’t want to hurt anymore
I wonder what I keep trying for
I believe it’s here to stay.
All I want is to be happy
Is that to much to ask?
Is it that difficult a task?
Just to be happy, and not feel so crappy.
I’m tired of meeting women
Because they’re all the same
My heart gets shattered like a picture frame
And I never see them again.
God is there any one out there?
Is there any one for me?
Please tell me, hear my plea
And if there is…….then where?
What do I need to do?
Is there something wrong with me?
If so; open my eyes so I can see
I’m tired of feeling blue.
I’ve made so many mistakes in my life
More than I can recall
I always feel one inch tall
Like I’ve been cut down repeatedly with a knife.
I know my life isn’t perfect
Nor do I claim it to be
But I try to be a better me
It’s like my brain has a short circuit.
I don’t know how it’s going to end
For me and a certain girl
She sent my heart and head into a whirl
Then said she just wants to be friends.
She said she needs to get back her heart
And she said she’d give us a try
I’m not sure when I’ll find out if it’s true or a lie
I wonder if she’s going to even start.
Start to get it back from her old man
She deserves better than him
She needs to give him the trim
And never speak to him again.
Maybe one day I’ll find out
Maybe one day she’ll be with me
I just have to wait and see
But I can’t shake this doubt.
I’m ready for something good to happen to me
I think I’m about due
I’ve been waiting for something true
But how long will that wait be?