Forever Asleep

Ever since you left I have been at my lowest peak.
Ever since you told me you didn't love me,
I've struggled to get through the week.
I am desperate just to try again,
hoping one day you will realize I truly loved you when.

I have tried to numb the pain in unhealthy ways, with people that are just a phase.
The way they look at me just isn't the same.
The sad thing is that no matter what I do,
at night I still only think of you.

It makes me sick, a liar like you could make me feel so broken,

I am tired of all the commotion.
No plan and no action could ever make me not love you,
I just wish someone could show me a way to push through.

My friends tell me he is the worst, they could say anything yet when I see him I feel almost like I could burst

 with anger,

with hopelessness,

with no air passing through my lungs.

Over and over again I am struck.

Even through all the pain he has put me through,
there is no regret from that car ride you first told me you loved me too.
The only wish I have is that I was enough for you.

-the girl that isn’t enough