When I was younger

when I was younger

I was told I could be 

anything I want to be

I use to say

I want to be 

an artist 

a musician 

a mermaid

then I got a little older

and people said 

that I could be want ever I want

but when I would tell them

they would laugh and say 

pick something more realistic 

when I was younger

i locked my heart in a box 

hidden inside of my closet 

because I was scared that it would get broken

and it did 

my heart has been 

broken and sown back together so many times

I have lost count 

I have all the scars from the 

ally operations my family did to try and fix me

When I was younger

I fell in love with the sky 

day and night

I would sit out all day to see the sun

and fight the urge of sleep at night 

just to see the sky

people said I need to love on the ground 

like all the others

 but I am not like the others

When I was younger

I would always play pretend

I would fake my smiles and my laughter 

but I would try to give someone 

real laughter 

I was just giving and giving happiness 

until there was none left for me

I still fake my smiles and my laughter 

I still have all the scars that plague my skin

like a incurable disease 

but life is full of pain

it only makes life hard

but every time you gat knocked down

stand back up

dust yourself off

and keep moving forward