Complications

I tried to overcome the feeling in my heart.

I know it wasn't what I wanted or needed but I tried.

I tried to open up and be the side of me that I used to be, 

The side that was free, able to live and love. 

I found someone.

I can't tell you that this girl wasn't special.

I opened up, giving her the chance to pull me away from my empty feeling,

But I just couldn't seem to escape it.

I was pushing for something I couldn't have,

And the worst part is I couldn't have it because my heart wouldn't let me.

No matter how hard I try I couldn't figure this situation out, 

And to this day I am still stuck. 

She loves me, but I love someone else.

When I think of the word love, that someone else pops in my head.

That someone is what I want and need,

And just once I wish things wouldn't be so complicating.

I wish that someone else loved me,

Hell, I hope that someone else does love me, 

Because I am craving simplistic,

And everything is way easier with the one you love and a mended heart.