do i have to explain?

it's hard to explain. 

i've been used so much, i've learned not to trust

but this time, with you, it's different

you were my first heartbreak 

and my first best mistake 

at first, i did everything i could to hate you

it started to work

then it didn't. 

i didn't try to love you the way i did. 

and i will be honest and say i don't believe in love, at least not at my age

how could something so great, hurt so much

and how could something so large, affect you so little 

after everything you've done to me

if there is a "love", then i still love you 

i "love" you with all my soul

everyone asks me "how could you like someone like that?"

i didn't try to 

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"i never asked for this, or planned it in advance, i was nearly blown here by the winds of chance"

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i fell for you, and i fell hard 

and what did you do? 

even when you that i was hurt,

you made my life hell 

you told everyone 

you told lies

i didn't deserve it. 

and i don't deserve you