Why did you ask when you already know?

lovelydarkanddeep

I just love the times when someone who doesn't care about me, asks, "Hey how are you?" or "Are you okay?", I'm tempted to say this:

"Well my best friend just put her hand over my heart, reached into my chest, took hold of my heart, and crushed it to dust in front of me. Then proceed to make me watch her interact with whom I have been replaced. 

When i tried to tell the girl I love more than anything, how much I truly love her, she misinterpreted my words and told me her boyfriend knows how lucky he is. 

I didn't think a heart could break, even after it had been crushed to dust, but it did. 

I have no confidence in myself, and I completely hate myself. 

My dad likes to drink and chew and sometimes, walks out of the house. 

So now I'm just waiting for the day he leaves, and doesn't decide to come back.

And the next time I see the girl I love, she will look past me and proceed to break me and my confidence into a thousand pieces every day for the next months.

And again, just letting myself fall into the abyss of misery my best friend has fortuned me with. And every day spent wondering what I did wrong, and why I can't keep friends, and Why, why, have I suddenly changed from liked by everyone, to unnoticed by everyone."

But yeah, I'm doing great, how about you.

 

  • Author: Izzy (Pseudonym) (Offline Offline)
  • Published: April 4th, 2017 10:18
  • Comment from author about the poem: Luckily, most of this stuff is starting to evaporate from the life I live now.
  • Category: Short story
  • Views: 81
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Comments3

  • willyweed

    when true love comes you will know, but she don't always say hello, she just smiles with her eyes but you will realize as you watch your spirit rise, you are young love will come enjoy yourself while you wait. peace and love for you Izzy. ww

    • lovelydarkanddeep

      Much thanks for the love Willy. Love goes to you as well, dear friend. Xxx

    • Tony36

      Well written and expressed Great write

    • poetboy5454

      Excellent write. Believe in yourself, because in the end the only person you can truly count on is the one that's been with you since the beginning.



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