Again

i'm going to give myself up to let myself down again. wish i could drown again. Die again and maybe live to hear another lie again. Im going to tear all my clothes off and maybe lay bare again. Wish i loved my body but continue to hate it again. Tell myself im valuable but don't know my worth...Once again. And suppose i write like this when i feel like shit again. want to conflict pain on my wrist again. But over and over again, i say i'll be fine again. It's just your mind again. "You'll get through it again"-Gone Girl