Distorted Reality

See writing has saved me. I can't hold that poison, from pen to paper all the hurt, pain, disappointment transfers from me to paper.

It's don't belongs to me by divine right. That shit not my story, I'm the captain of this ship. I decided where I'm going. See my make-up is all love and my fears have attracted me exactly the opposite of everything I wanted.

What part don't you understand! See I choose love over everything. The shit I can't handle I pass the torch to the Queen that's resting inside. She's been so patiently waiting on my beckoning call.

To be honest I don't know why i haven't called her in before now. I'll tell you;my ego,that pride that have you thinking you don't need nothing and no one. I got this shit. This pride shit has played me over and over again.

I have forces all around me, all over me pushing and probing wanting me to sabotage myself, see the rabbit whole goes deeper than anyone expects it to. Its that same force that has you to say fuck it then swallow these pills by the bale. I've never been weak sorry wasn't born that way.
I despised that image of " I don't need no man" When the shit was written man-woman-child.
I've had to push that stroller alone hell thats no fun.

I've been cheated of my dreams.
Everyone has a Devine purpose and when you sleep on that purpose it can get real ugly. Some are born in and others just show up in your circle. Arrived only to send that violent shock wave of pain and fire. See at my worst I know I'm on the right path cause these continued obstacles on there shit constantly knocking me down. It's not enough I'm on the ground cause that torch had been lit burning of my flesh. I'm tired, I'm injured, I can't even cry any more cause I know what this is.
A test that keeps chasing me at its highest level. What people don't know about me is hell I never loose. Everything every moment every second is already predestined for my better good. So as I write this shit I send out a shock wave of love cause I can't be broken.

Kizi-yah