Ladder of Ascension

She will always have her intuition, somewhere

She must have sensed where I was at

Perhaps, she wants to come clean about her decision in regard to the cat that she insisted upon  adopting from my invalid friend

I was not about to let her force me into making the decision

The same damned one that I have been coerced into making at least twice before

I am really trying to forget about the distaste that won't let me ignore it, lingering like a hungry pigeon in my mind

The pest that likes toying with my emotions

Crawling through all of my beauty products

Sticking like flypaper to my flesh every time that I apply one of my lotions

But, what can I do about shit that has already been done?

There has never been a battle upon this field that she has not won so far

Before I can even get around to making any sort of move without her heckling me in  the foreground

I just try to keep centered within my own solidity

In my oneness

Never letting anything mock my groove

As a matter of fact, I won't even let anyone watch me for even a brief moment

Solitude sucks already!

My main endeavors now are my money and trying to foresee who it will be who steps it up to the plate to become my next man

I may even already know somehow who he is

But, you never really can tell until it is time

Not even trying

Not even dating

Nor am I ,  anymore these days, even believing which won't get me anywhere near where I know that I need to be

I am aware and awake and awaiting my destiny in the most patient way that could ever come close to possible now, which is the best time to be caught up in the light of all that has been previously aforementioned

Tension no longer exists in my new reality

The only creature that does is boundless success

Everything that will attempt to make a mess of me now becomes certain prey

I no longer cater to stray dogs or any other wayward energy for that matter

The spiraling ladder before me twists and turns and winds up higher into the Heavens than anything alive can even try to comprehend

My thought patterns all intertwine with nothing else but the miracle of ascension...

2/14/2016