Minds journey / Bringing up from deep below

I remember every single one of my flaws 

Never acted them out but I knew they were wrong 

So here is my confessions of all my sins to bring a new light 

Never meant to touch her that way, please forgive me 

Fell too deep in the aura that I knew I shouldn't have, please forgive me 

God forsaken and dirty images, please forgive me 

Powerful urges and animalistic, please forgive me 

I shouted at her senselessy, please forgive me

What felt like pleasure only brought me pain 

What felt like ecstasy only made me paralyzed 

What can I do to destroy my black dog? 

It follows me around everywhere I go 

Also what felt like death coming only made me scream internally 

Eating shit from today's fetishes brings me down 

to hell and deeoerb

Rape me as much as I raped you

Red light libido 

Please turn blue 

The fires too hot and it's burning me alive with every impulsive flash 

Something superficial never to become 

It's only logical, that it shouldn't be 

Let it be 

Let me be please 

Forgive me

Forgive me 

Forgive me for every black sinister thought 

Part 2

I know deep in my heart it was all wrong 

I know we all make mistakes but what do to you if it haunts you? 

Some days I don't want to be here 

This is all a lie, simple denial 

My thoughts are a lie 

I wish they were 

Heavy wieght, my being aches 

Black is all I see

Forgiveness and acceptance is all I need 

But how can I receive that in an empty room

Spitting out all my sins 

Please I beg you forgive me 

I look into myself and realize 

The one tearing me down is me

Water rushes from the well 

Me myself and I

Me I beg you to forgive me 

You're the one I've been asking for to forgive me 

I beg me to forgive me for everything

No one is watching

Oops I was going to go there, to my selfishness and immaturity 

If I can destroy myself 

This much... 

Then I can and will 

Bring myself up again 

A brand new beginning 

Starting from nothing 

If the same shall happen once more 

Then I will set everything on fire along with me 

Burn my world along with me 

So new life shall start 🌼🌈🌞