I’m tired of being hurt, I’m tired of my feelings being dragged through the mud and left there without a care, I’m tired of people thinking they can take advantage of me, I’m tired of being looked at as weak... I’m just tired! People can be so cold you would think they are dead already and they’ve lost their body heat... I try to smile but I can’t help but to think that things won’t get better.... I try to be brave and look confident but the world seems to have a way to show I’m not those things.... I’m head strong but others opinions matter so much to me... but that’s no help because those same opinions are what seems to tear down my self-esteem... the opinions that split my self-esteem apart fiber by fiber... making me drown deep into a depression... so deep I can’t make my way up to the top... my continuous cries for help go unnoticed and unimportant... my self-esteem is gone.... all because I let the world see a weak spot... all because someone took advantage of my vulnerability.... someone saw how unconfident I was and preyed on my weakness... now I’m left with no self-esteem and very low confidence... It’s my fault though for showing the world my vulnerability, right?
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Lost Girl (Pseudonym) (
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- Category: Sad
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Lost Girl, anyone who can write as well as you do is NOT what you say you are in this well written poem. The poem says one thing, the writing something else. You can show as much vulnerability as you want, from the way you write I know you are strong and confident.
Nuff said.
Thank you 🙂
Vulnerability comes with an option. The option to use it to your advantage. Being weak is advantageous, in certain ways. In some ways it could be your fault, but I can't really say. Due to the fact that I don't know the details of course. Writing seems to be a good outlet for you. We'll help all that we can, if you let us. Thanks for sharing. Keep it up.
Thank you 🙂
Wow I can relate, I spend most of my time trying not to be in others head. 22 years on I'm still the same open and vulnerable with a heart that breaks, trying so desperately to be that change.
As stated by others your confidence is already with you in the way you write, just need to be brave and hold on tight.
For we are just pack animals and they have a huge impact on us, we all need ones that appreciate and value our contribution.
So as a wolf does keep moving forward till it does or run your own just don't give up being who you are.
take care.
Yeah a lot of others say they can relate it’s a really relatable feeling for most 🙂
MY PRECIOUS ANGEL ~ You are really loved on MPS and I trust that is an encouragement and a Bleesing. One of the BEAUTIES of Young Ladies is their naivety and trust and vulnerability and need to be loved ! I can say hand on heart that I have never taken advantage of any Young Lady since I myself was a TEEN ! What is beautiful ~ when i am gentle and understanding and loving with a LADY (of any age !) SHE loves me twice as much ! But I love Ladies who are positive & sassy (and you have the capacity to like that ~ BECAUSE YOU ARE WOMAN) I like LADIES Who when they say NO they mean NO (not maybe !) and want an equal say ~ON DATES ~ about where we go and where we eat and who we hang out with and that is how it should be in marriage ! You are lovely ANGEL and I am praying that GOD will give you more RESOLVE ~ more SELF CONFIDENCE and more JOY ~ Hugs BRIAN (UK)
It’s always nice to see your comment Brian, your always offering support and encouragement and I applaud you for that 🙂
Lost Girl...so well written...it's great and just know we all have strengths and we are all weak at something...
Thank you and I appreciate you taking time out to read my piece!
We're all vunerable u know. I'm an old geezer and lifes taught me to toughen up and hide behind a wall of camoflage. I'm a big softy and my feelings can be hurt by the wrong words or actions as can all others here. You are not alone and life will give you the materials to build your very own wall of invunerability. Your writing is a strength. Take pride from that, hold your head up, no one else can write like you do.
Thank you for sharing your thoughts
I have paranoia. and I'm afraid to go out most of the time. I feel afraid because a lot of times I shake all over, and I don't want people get the wrong idea and take it for weakness. I try to stop it but if I do it gets worse. I guess ill have to live with it. I stay in my home almost always. a lot of people are not fair.
Shake or no shake I wouldn’t judge you, people are bullies and I know what it feels like to be bullied. I’ve been bullied for my size and a number of other things... no matter if you didn’t shake or have paranoia and I was sizes littler people would still find a way to talk about us or have something to say. Don’t confine yourself to a home because your scared or paranoid because running from the people your scared of your missing out on some good people to. Just remember don’t always spend your life thinking about what could happen because your missing out on what’s really happening. I’m not going to lie to you the world can be a cold place and at 15 years old I know this but it also has some upsides.
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