Wholeness

I can't believe that he is still even in these pages

It's all so different now

We have known each other, literally, for ages

Tonight, he brought over a new light brother, a possible new friend

I can't just sit here and pretend I'm not interested

Perhaps he brought me his replacement, suddenly, all these years later

I can't bite yet or, guaranteed, I'll be called a traitor

I thin that this new guy is a lot more like me

He's chill

I like that

My ex is way too high strung, which is why he's still my ex

It turns out that it really has nothing to do with all the witches with their silly hexes

It's just because we are just better as friends

I will always love him with all of my heart and soul

I want him to meet each and every goal that he has

I know that I will meet all of mine from now on

The part of me that gives in to human reactions such as envy and jealousy needs to go straight the fuck to Hell and stay there

His little friend may just be what I have needed for what seems like forever

But, I just cannot do the menage a trois thing

It's the way that I am

I don't at all enjoy group sex and I couldn't do it for sure if my ex was a part of it

I have always been a one on one kind of being

Anything otherwise just will not ever work

I don't want to do anything that might scare this other guy away

He asked me for my number on their way out the door

So, I guess I really need not say anything more about it here

He is not a believer of fear, which is so beautiful I can't even began to further explain

Denver has been calling the other one back to it, of course, so what I thought to be a loss may end up actually becoming a miraculous gain after all

I can't go through any more pain over my past

I just can't do it again

It's gonna be a blast, my new hay ride, for sure

It's like God is giving me a sign, a real one

Just in the nick of time

My co-workers have lately been sensing my emotional wreckage and it is already creating a slight rift in my new game plan

I need a man, and it's not my ex

I need a new host to sample my sex in it's newest and most pristine form

The storms will bring me to new levels of enlightenment rather than purifying my soul

Wholeness will become an entirely new animal

A beautiful, mystical, majestic beast

I have paid my dues to humanity tenfold

It's time to be a part of the feast once more

It's time for me to witness first hand what all of this struggling and tear shed has all been for

Sanctity

Peace

Requited love

As above, not below ever again......

7/23/2016