My Black is beautiful

I was told that my black isn't beautiful. That the pigment of my skin should have made me much lighter because nobody wants a dark skin girl anyway. Doesn't it matter if I give it all I got because if this mans cock can reach my G-spot then at least im good for something..right? If my legs can spread wide enough to make him stay then whats the point?To be dark skin and get him to stay is a prize so where is my reward anyways? Dark skin girls bleaching their skin and hair adding makeup here and there. Asking society "am I pretty yet? Can I pull him yet? Am I cute enough to cuff him, make him mine..yet?" I mean my dark is lovely, my dark is unique but if that's true then why am I only worthy of one night stands? Why am I only worthy of this guy holding my hand during sex but not worthy enough to be offered a wedding band. Black girls are shaped differently. It's funny how this pigmentation caused separation but im still separated between the hashtags of team light and dark skin. Like these memes are making it any better asking social media which colored girl can sex you better. I was told that my black isn't beautiful and I wasn't going to be good for anything but laying on my back. Carrying babies in this sack. Loving them and then giving them back. Allowing these men to come and explore my body like they are on some type of hunt looking for lost treasure. Entering me Like a deep pool but this pool is out of order because to many people have entered their waste. Making me feel it deep into my waist bringing another project baby into this screwed up place. Using me and abusing me and throwing me out into the weather. Leaving marks so that everyone knew that I belonged to this master. Leaving another dark skin mother on section 8 telling her to rely on the government to put food on her children's plate. But still, they are telling me that my black isn't good enough because I am the color of dirt when it's wet. Coco beans before it's mixed and coffee grind before you add the cream. Dark skin girls should bath in bleach because of that's the only way they will fit into society. If im not ready to fit in then they just keep silence of me. Putting me in this corner so that I don't "brain wash" the dark skin girls into thinking that it's okay to love the skin you're in. Hey, black child, it's okay to be different. It's okay not to fit in. It's okay to a tad darker than the rest blacker the berry sweeter the juice. Don't be afraid of history, just because you were once hung by a noose and your head hung low that doesn't mean my dark child that you can't let your crown shine high now. You are more than just a one night stand. You are more than just pretty for a dark skin. You are more than just a white man's token that was taken for a joke and put to shame. Your black is beautiful. Your black is unique. If your black makes you a monster then be the biggest freak you can be. My black is beautiful.....not another hashtag shopping spree