Satiated

I haven't been me

Since March or April, somewhere around there

But, I am taking myself back

From the heathens that love to see me suffering

I am beyond fed up

Tired

Over not having shit

I've been way too passive

Living in fear of other people, which never happens

Not to me

I am known to be fearless in my many approaches to living my life

Lately, I have been twisting the knife that is lodged in my spine all by myself

It's almost as though I have adapted to my pain in all of its forms

I don't even flinch now

I was given an inch that seemed open to become miles

But, as it turns out, it was an extremely piss-poor inch

A go-getter

An entrepreneur

This entire ordeal has taken me in circles

I am making a figure-eight right now

This is older than the fucking hills already

Penny-pinching my way through blood money- literally!

I'm a donor

A loner

A broke-ass, treeless STONER

I need to become the owner of my own passage once more

Before all of these bells and whistles went off somewhere inside my head

Falling over

and over

and over

again

For

dip shit

dumb fuck

Laughable excuses for men

I have no other choice but to start doing ME again

Until I am walking bow-legged

Satiated

Fed

Loved

Iron-gloved

Ready to pounce at all times

Letting no suitable boy get away

No stone left unturned

Taking chances because I have so many of them to spare

Teaching myself not to care about the opinions of shit-eating beasts that never do a damned thing for me, let alone for themselves

I am taking back my fortress

I am here to become satiated by the right to live

I am here to love 

I am here to receive as I am to give

Praise the Lord above!

I am here to learn the ancient ways of Wisdom, Honor, and Respect

I am here to help erect monuments that speak the secrets of lore

Moderation of the highest scale possible

Wanting more is not a sin, as long as it is all-inclusive....

7/17/2017