Do not Follow, For You do not Deserve to Bleed

I wanted to say sorry

For I put you through hell

With your worry

And you false hope I won't fall again

Life suits you well

And that is why you should

Because I am the storm

But I will subside

Either you stronger

Or swallowing you hole

I do not know how many tears you have wasted on me

How many breaths taken away

When I have scared you

Even scarred you

As I walked

And laid lifeless in the middle of the street

I don't know how many times you thought me dead

Or seen me with medication

Asking me if you should take me to the hospital

Instead of the date we planned a month before

I am a man who believes in fate

Believes there is a higher power

But my back has been turned too long

I have been burned too much

And walked too long 

To not find what I was  looling for

Do not waste your beauty on me

For my ugly will make you think

You only deserve this

Make you see yourself as worthless

And that what you really need is me

But it is a lies

Created by my fear

No longer shed any tears for me

Move forward in life 

Follow your dreams

Because I have my mother to bury me

And all that attend my funeral

Shall spit upon my grave

That is what I deserve 

So, please do not follow me

For where I go there is no exit

And you will no longer be able to leave