Beacause I Thought You Loved Me.

A : I let your beautiful way of thinking, intrude into my heart , manipulating it , and completely sucking out all of my thoughts .
B : I moved away and it's been months , finally it made me understand that , your not the one for me , you were temporary happiness, and I was never the only one.
A : I was hurt , yet you still lived your life , you seen me bleeding , you seen the clots.
B : 7 months down the drain, virginity gone , still confused , 4 months to finally realize , I'm done.

C : after u left me , I built this wall, that's impossible for a man to get over , your kisses left me mesmerized ,
D : I was innocent , pure , yet you took advantage of me , I thought you loved me , you got what you wanted , I was a kid making excuses for you , " he took mY virginity and never spoke to me again because he wanted to join the army " " he only left because he didn't know how to tell me " " it wasn't him it was me"
C : when we were together , I advertised or televised a healthy relationship with you, when you left me I had to realize that I was traumatized you have my heart paralyzed, I was not surprised this happened to me, I got on social media and try to improvise The story on why we're not together anymore, no one cared, I got criticized.

D : sometimes I let my mind wander, it's not all your fault, because I know what you did the first time, so what in my right mind told me that you wasn't going to do it again and again and again? I was like his toy , he can come play with me when he wants & when a new toy comes out he would get that one and play with it too while I sit aside and wait for him to pick me up again , and at a certain point in time I knew it. I didn't care, I believe that because he was having sex with me ,he still loved me , he just couldn't commit. He had control over my heart, my mind , my body, we had the key.

E : even though your so far away I constantly think about you and what could have been if you were faithful and trustworthy towards me, you blew it and my heart is somewhere in a ditch.
F : Jamaree , I considered you my best friend my soulmate my first love my first fuck you were everything to me, I thought of you as my heartbeat and others think of you as an error.
E : your hugs was so rich being around you I had a twitch you had my heart in your hand , you punctured it ,no stitch. When we laughed it was like a pitch, now it's time to switch because you didn't care that when you left it made my heart have a permanent glitch.
F : calling your phone at 3am for 2 days in a row , finding out u continued to live your life with another women , caused my heart to ache , I was unaware of her , there's no way you can compare her , hearing what I heard made me want to cause a reign of terror .

G : goodbye , I shall not cry , everything was a lie , I cannot deny , my heart is still punctured trying to heal it self , I no longer see u as my angel , my bestfriend , my love .. your the Devil who never cries .
G : I'm so surprised , that now I can look into the skies , and never have to see your eyes , I thought I was your prize , time for me to move in clockwise , while you live your life , I lay in bed and realizes that true love really dies.