An Ode to My Mother

Mother

A rose does not compare to your beauty

But a thorn compares to your words and actions

Misguided by your looks

I was alarmed to find myself in harm’s way

A master of disguises

You were able to fool everyone for so long

Why did you do it?

Why did you use my love as a shield towards the pain you went through?

You hurt me just as much as you were hurt

I didn’t deserve it

I cared about you

So much

You hurt me time and time again

And still I prayed for you to get better

I prayed for us to get better

I knew I was a bad kid

But I had my reasons

Though you, had no reason to be a bad mother

You were brought up in a bad situation

But you chose to be despicable

                                                                    You chose to destroy us                 

An action I just can’t find myself to forgive

Why can’t you see what you did to me?

How you broke me

How you destroyed the person I dreamed to be

Though the pain you caused is still prevalent in my life

I find myself still having love for you