Melt

All these moments that should bring happiness,

bring me sadness

i keep asking myself

if I'm depressed 

I keep telling myself 

I'm not depressed 

I'm looking in the mirror, and I'm not that impressed 

I'm sitting in the same place I was a year ago. 

I haven't moved a bit. 

Tears keep falling,

im broken, I'm heartless, I'm such a mess

i don't know how to say it out loud..

i don't really like talking in front of big crowds.

im trying to make my parents proud

it just never works out. 

Feels like these days I don't have a god,

im hanging this rope up on the rod, 

seconds away from hanging myself, I feel like I'm gonna melt 

I feel a way I never felt. 

Im just trying to save myself 

I don't wanna melt. 

Im so cold, so cold,

they say "you're so cold hearted" 

they keep trying to make me melt 

taking me out my comfort zone 

I feel a way I never felt.

thinking of new ways to work it out 

my thoughts say "use a belt" 

those who don't and even those who do know me 

probably think I'm suicidal 

and to that I laugh 

I laugh at all of you

because you want to be understood 

but you never try to understand 

you just hold my hand 

and tell me you do.