It’s been this way for a while now, happiness doesn’t seem
To be real
I try and do things differently to see where I’m going wrong
But I can’t seem to figure it out
I wanted to move foster homes because I thought maybe
It would help, maybe it would take away the sadness and
Anxiety
I’ve learned that you can’t just run away, the pain will follow
No matter where you go
People keep telling me I’ll be okay, that I’m strong
I’m not, really
I’m so far from it; I lie awake in bed at night
Thinking, how am I going to make it through the next day?
Where am I going to be 5 years from now?
Will I make it?
I sometimes feel overwhelmed and sick because
I feel like I won’t make it through something stressful
Some people would assume I’m depressed
I’m not, really
I’m wise in the sense of wondering how my life will turn out,
What I will become
I just want to be happy, that’s all I want, it’s
all I ask
In all honesty, I’m scared
Scared that happiness, is just an illusion
7/18/2016
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beyondvoid (
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- Comment from author about the poem: i wrote this last year while i was in an awful foster home. i was constantly feeling miserable. as i am, no longer a foster kid i considered the idea of sharing this poem in hopes that other foster kids will stumble across it and know they are not alone and life does get better. i love you all. thanks. :) // beyond void.
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WELCOME FRIEND ~ Count you Blessings ~ You are now a Member of the Beautiful & Caring MPS Family ~ welcome on Board. Some of our Members have been Fostered & Adopted so they can empathise. I now have my own Flat but I live near my Parents which is a Blessing ~ You have written an excellent POEM ~ But with a mixed message ~ I am praying you will find the Happiness & Security you so desire ! I note the date when you wrote it ~ Thanks for Caring & Sharing ~ You live in a "Happy City" I love Country Music an' Nashville ~ Love the OPRY ! Dolly Parton always has sell-out Concerts in the UK ~ still a Great Star. Every BLESSING BRIAN (UK) Please check my Poems ~ Thanks B.
thanks, darling. xx
bv, welcome to MPS! I do like your straight forward honest style of writing! Would love to read more from you.
And btw, happiness is NOT an illusion! Coming from an old geezer who had his share of both happiness and not so happy times!
thanks! i'm honoured you liked it. x
Well expressed and heartfelt poem, bv! Glad you are aboard MPS. I look forward to more from your pen.
thanks so much. 🙂 xx
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