declare my fate

mocuisle

The wait

My fate

I’ve never wanted anything so bad

Not to the point were it makes me sad

 

Just waiting for an answer makes me sick

Praying they’ll say yes. Now that’s my fix

Biting my tongue I try not to cry

If I’m rejected I think that ill die

 

I’ve never cared like this before

I can tell as this is poisoning me right to the core

I’m willing to do anything

I’m just hanging by a string

 

There is a pit in my stomach

The kind I get when I’m in public

That heart failing feeling

Lucky my smile is concealing

 

I sit by my phone calling and calling

I don’t know why but time is stalling

And I’m in such a rush

Why are they keeping it all hush

 

So much stress and anxiety

Its abnormal for me to give a fuck about society

My hearts racing every time I close my eyes I feel it jump

Heart beats with a thump

 

I’m on the edge I feel so displaced

Wow what a waste

So this is what normal feels like

Cut at just the tip of the spike

 

My brain is scattered

Everyone else chases me I’m not flattered

But I cant think like this

I’m literally in an abyss

 

  • Author: M.M (Pseudonym) (Offline Offline)
  • Published: August 29th, 2017 09:32
  • Comment from author about the poem: i know its not my best work. but writing usually helps even though i can't think straight waiting for this.
  • Category: Unclassified
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  • FredPeyer

    I have no clue what you are waiting for, but the writing is incredible. Very real, so now I am waiting too. For what?

    • mocuisle

      Thank you so much , and too see if I got my place in college , I've got no email and times running out 🙁

      • FredPeyer

        Yes, this is pretty important, I can see that. But you know what, just from the way you write, I absolutely know you will make it in life, no matter what!!!!

      • Mugsdaddy

        The unwanted rush of anxiety brought on by the useless thought of anticipation for something you want so bad it feels like a need. That pain strikes you at your core. Excellent work.

        • mocuisle

          Thank you!!



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