cutz

I never realized how much pain I was in until I felt the blade finally break skin

I never felt more pain in my life

A small stream of blood ran down my arm

I was sad 

Sad but no tears were falling

Not even a drop of salty sadness fell from my eye

This pain was different

It wasn't the cut that was paining me

It was the ache in my  heart

The disappointment I felt in the crevice of my soul

Stabbing me over and over again

I was falling apart

I had fallen apart

Feeling nothing but..... loneliness, sadness, and nothingness

A lump in my throat

A pounding in my chest

Once again the relief I felt when the blade ran across my wrists