love & hate

he put me through  hell an i called it love

sometimes i want to throw him off a cliff

and sometimes i want to catch him when he falls 

i cant decide which way to go 

 

leave or stay which road should i take 

if i stay i get abused not only  mentally but  verbally  to

if i leave ill throw everything away the home i worked hard for

an the pet family i created to stay 

 

im lost in this big world loosing myself i cant shake this 

pain in my heart and soul 

 

i loved him since i was young the love will always remain strong 

praying to the lord above asking for help but no answers where yet 

Answered and my situations  was not yet resolved 

this relationship  is not easy on both parts

to hard of decision  to make myself i need a hand to lift

my spirit up

 

this is a love and hate i cant stand to give into 

this love and hate i have to give up but i don't know how to

im scared to loose everything i worked hard to keep 

i worked hard for all this an it all turned into a love and 

and hate i didn't want to create