Off The Tracks

i have broken glass in my hands,

and a grenade in my chest.

i dont know how much more of this i can take.

i cry behind closed doors,

and i fade away in my music.

im alone in the dark,

never thought you would push me this far.

my reoccuring nightmares haunt me.

i keep steering off the road.

ive steered off the road that leads me to god.

but ive been gone for so long...

i dont know what road to take anymore.

you said you were hoping for me to tell you to stay.

if you want to stay in our hometown,

then stay.

but if you want to go back 3,600 miles away,

then im not going to be that anchor thats thrown into the water when your trying to steer the boat forward.

my feet are magnetic,

but somehow its the same force of these tracks.

i cant even drive in my lane without driving off a cliff.

im off the tracks.

i didnt plan for this to happen.

i steered off the tracks,

and now i want a new place to call home.

no matter how hard i try to get on track...

i just cant connect.

i finally thought i was on the right track.

i was going 200 miles per hour,

but then i took a turn...

i slammed on the brakes. 

i wasnt stopping fast enough...

and then i saw the cliff.

i steered the other way,

but the wheel faced forward.

i was so close to the edge...

then finally i was able to stop,

but when i did...

i realized i was hanging off the edge.

i was saved at the very last second...

but i had gotten lost...

and steered off the tracks.

ever since then...

i havent been able to find my soul again.