Nothing

i seem to be nothing 

i am meat with eyes 

i have a little glass ball inside of me that holds my soul 

and yet i have to audacity to wear my heart on my sleeve 

i cannot cry 

and i cannot heal 

all my scars feel pointless 

and all my thoughts feel colorless 

i am exhausting according to thoughtless mouths 

i am a liar according to the insensitive 

know one cares to see the ghost behind the curtain 

and the shadow cowering above me

and the meaning behind every word i speak 

its only truth i speak 

they give me no way out but death 

maybe its the easiest way out 

i cannot change who i am when they're the reason i am who i am 

i live in this body 

and yet i accept me 

i thought the thoughts 

i experienced the horrors 

i know my dreams 

and i lived my nightmares 

maybe one day you'll see 

that you never knew me.