I'm supposed to

I can't tell my mama because she wouldn't understand
I'm supposed to wait until marriage to know the loving of a man

And I can't tell my dad because he'd lose his fucking mind
He'd raise his hand to hit me and then act like the fault is mine

My sister knows a little bit, I'm scared that she knows more
I let the words fall from my lips, I cried them on her floor

But I can't tell my mama because she wouldn't understand
My dad would probably scream at me this isn't what he planned

It happened all too fast for me it happened in a flash
One minute all my clothes were on the next my brain just crashed

He hurt more than anything, he lied and and forced my hand
I was supposed to wait until marriage to know the loving of a man