But I'm Not

This bitter cold windy day 

Passing me by in a haze

Looking through these blurry eyes

Can't stop myself from asking why

Those days we spent side by side

The ones that left me warm inside

Must have meant nothing at all

Why did I let myself take the fall 

My heart will never be the same

This heartbreak driving me insane 

If I were a better person 

I'd hope you find your pot of gold 

If I were a better person 

I'd you pray you don't end up alone and old

If I were 

If I were a better person...

But I'm not.

You turned so so callus and cold

And all I wanted was you to hold

My love no longer enough 

You turned to her, broke my trust

Now these nights I lay and weep 

Never able to fall asleep 

All I can do is think of us 

And how it all just blew to dust

My heart will never be the same

This heartbreak driving me insane

If I were a better person 

I'd hope you find your pot of gold 

If I were a better person 

I'd you pray you don't end up alone and old

If I were 

If I were a better person...

But I'm not.

~SS

11/15/17