Scared

I feel like i'm fighting with myself and everyone else even though I don't show it the word's in my head taunt me it makes feel like the world is against me

I cry so loud but yet so silent to everyone else, I kick and scream at the voice in my head but they don't leave me! i'm sad, sick and insecure and that won't ever leave me

I feel like the piece of my mind is slowly breaking up and one-day I'm scared that I won't have a mind at all I will just be a dead weight

the one thing that made me feel liked I had control I'm now scared of using cause I was so close to death