Change of pace

from the beginning I was adventurous

from the beginning I was learning

from the beginning I was a new person

but now

at the end I'm lazy

at the end I'm forgetting

at the end I'm a old soul

from taking the one step in

to taking the one step out

this wonderful world

why does it feels more gray

or

is it my eyes deceiving me

i need to adapt

i need to learn

i need to accept this world

but yet i can't

i feel insane

going in circles like a mad man

saying

it's not worth the price!

here i sit 

feeling the clock

going faster and faster

to get this over with

slowly I'm growing

becoming wiser

but yet I am a fool

with the wisdom i have

and

the knowledge i own

I do not share

knowledge is power they said

meaning the world is getting more powerful and insane

just like my heart

knowing rejection and yet still feel like trying

acceptance is one thing

but

giving up is another thing

we work on this slow project called life

if we give up then we will rot

so keep moving on 

or

keep on trying

because giving up ain't a option

going insane is better then nothing

because you need something to keep the heart moving

to

make your heart filled with anything

or

something...

This change of pace

from being a child

getting older and older

being left out in the cold

every day in the morning

to come into the warm open doors

who lies directly to you

a place of warmth and happiness

is all just a lie

school is just a wasted time...

but yet...

we need it to get some where...

a very dumb letter

a very small letter

that could really mean all your future going to waste

all your work...

i wont accept this

no matter how i look at it

i...

i...

i just want to break free from this circle

and

change this pace to a little more peaceful