Cover for the pain.

The years pass without notice in an out of Relationships just to cover the pain i am trying to avoid.

then I find her the one I think the pain slowly fades ,then yet again I'm left without nothing to grab at.

The Cover is pulled back like a dam breaking do to the back up of everything its holding onto.

Now the pain is back an I notice she was not the one yet again but you were the one.

the pain is not from this last one leaving the pain I feel is from the one i screwed up.

The pain is from so long ago it almost feels faded but its not.

Some days i move forwards without a thought of her even know i am always think of her.

The hardest pain is know i screwed up an she did not.

Everything i do is just to build a cover to mask her so that i don't feel this pain.

Then there are some day's where i want the pain but can not find it because i have covered it so much.

now when i think of you i do not know what i feel everything so masked under this cover now.

Love , pain it all seems the same now I still know no matter what i would do it all again just to be with you for one more minute.