why

Why?

Why do  i live this pain?

Pain i put myself through.

Why cant i stop myself?

Why do i think this?

Am i floating?

Am i drowning?

Why am i  hiding behind a mask hoping

no one will notice me?

My friends they don't understand my pain.

I talk to them and they don't care.

Why am i like this?

I call with my prayers.

I yell it out.

I hope god will send me a person who cares and is patient.

One who understands.

Do you care?

I hope you do.

I cant do this by myself.

I hope someone understands.

I don't even love myself.