Okay?

Pressure builds up like walls, building in my head

A force behind it, threatening to spill-

An overflow, a river,

A rush of adrenaline and a twinge of regret

Eyes watering, mouth dry-

Why, oh why?

Built from nothing

                                                      Made into something                                                         

Anywhere and everywhere, enjoyment

And sadness.

A never-ending guilt that gnaws at the heart.

Ripping piece by piece until thereʼs nothing but shreds.

Unstoppable tears, falling down

They stain my cheeks, like paint from a canvas.

Red, blue and so much more

I donʼt even know what for.

Until the pain fades into numbness

I sit and stare into the space that is my mind.

Finally calm, but forever saddened

That nub resides- a dull, throbbing pain

That never quite fades.

Always remembered and never forgotten.