My grandparents never bounced me on their left knee
But my knee bounces like it's supposed to that way
I remember the movies and special effects
Of delusion, confusion all in one set
But they didn't show the migraine that comes before
What's next?
I'm never ill but I feel sick
Gripping my side's so I don't lose it
Breathing rabid, heart attack
Trying to control
Won't. Let. It. Out
I can't sleep but I'm still dreaming
Screaming everytime I see it
For this isn't a nightmare but the best dream I've had
Of pearly whites that sicken myself
Only a touch and I'll be ok
But a touch is illegal and I'm not ok
Do you think they'd have my picture smiling?
Held up by pathetic tacks
and notes on how I wanted to kill myself
Oh they'll search and search
but I've been lost for years
Following flowers and every. Single. Move
I know everything I'm a degree in florists
I could tell you their entire routine
And darling you're the prettiest rose I've ever seen
No. No. No. No.
I don't know what to do with oh so much
Sat. Quaking. Quakung. Quaking. Waiting.
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Author:
Jo Middleton (
Offline) - Published: January 22nd, 2018 11:33
- Category: Sad
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Comments2
That was brilliant so many heart felt lines. Thank you
Thank you, the support is appreciated greatly 🙂
WELCOME JO ~ Thanks for your first poem ~ very autobiographical ! I like it because you tell it like it was ad now is and many of us can empathise ! Being 16 is the BEST of TIMES and the WORST of TIMES ~ we all want to break from our past ~ but we don't know how to because we're scared of the FUTURE and as you say ~ We just sit quaking ~ quaking ~ waiting ! All I can promise ~ from my experience ~ it does get gradually better ~ if your try to make the RIGHT CHOICES ~ that is what life is all about ! Blessings ~ Yours BRIAN (UK) P.S. Having a CAT is the best Friend you will ever have ~ Cats are empathetic and always know just how we feel !
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