thoughts; then and now

i feel so lost and insecure 

sometimes i think I’ll get better

and sometimes i'm not even sure

sure if i was ever meant to be here

i don't know where here is but 

i will feel it when i’m there 

they told me it’s all in my head 

i wish i didn't care

care about anything, anyone

cause everyone lies and when they leave

all i could think of is 

how they never said goodbye

but it's okay because i'll see them again

maybe not the same way i used to 

everything will have changed by then 

and as time passes

maybe they’ll realize

one day, i won't be here 

and i will disappear

so for now 

please give me a sign to stay alive