there aren't many people of jealous of, but i'm jealous of my best friend.
see, when she married the man i had first i was fine with that.
when she became pregnant first, i was fine with that.
when she was five months along i became pregnant, with a bastard child and
was going to be a single mother at nineteen.
anyways, i had a miscarriage on august twenty-second.
she didn't hold me and tell me i'd be okay.
at her baby shower i watched everyone rub her belly, i was fine.
when i wanted to talk about my loss she changed the subject, again i was fine.
november twenty-eight she had my goddaughter.
we haven't talked much.
i watch her with her baby and i'm not fine.
she is married to a man that could have been mine with a baby
that could have been mine.
i'm jealous she has a family and here i'm still heartbroken over
my deadbeat baby daddy and childless!!!
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Leigh D. Cameron (Pseudonym) (
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- Comment from author about the poem: i wrote this after not talking to my best friend of seven years for a few weeks. it\\\'s hard losing a baby then watching someone so close not care and have what you \r\nalways wanted. i love her and my goddaughter more than life but it\\\'s still hard.
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This hard to read too (the subject I mean)! You are very brave....
thank you very much !!
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