December 24th

Leigh Cameron

              there aren't many people of jealous of, but i'm jealous of my best friend.

see, when she married the man i had first i was fine with that.

        when she became pregnant first, i was fine with that.

when she was five months along i became pregnant, with a bastard child and 

      was going to be a single mother at nineteen.

anyways, i had a miscarriage on august twenty-second.

          she didn't hold me and tell me i'd be okay.

at her baby shower i watched everyone rub her belly, i was fine.

       when i wanted to talk about my loss she changed the subject, again i was fine.

november twenty-eight she had my goddaughter.

we haven't talked much.

             i watch her with her baby and i'm not fine.

she is married to a man that could have been mine with a baby 

      that could have been mine. 

i'm jealous she has a family and here i'm still heartbroken over 

      my deadbeat baby daddy and childless!!!






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  • Author: Leigh D. Cameron (Pseudonym) (Offline Offline)
  • Published: January 30th, 2018 22:00
  • Comment from author about the poem: i wrote this after not talking to my best friend of seven years for a few weeks. it\\\'s hard losing a baby then watching someone so close not care and have what you \r\nalways wanted. i love her and my goddaughter more than life but it\\\'s still hard.
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  • Lorna

    This hard to read too (the subject I mean)! You are very brave....

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