If I had another life...

If I had another life…

Food is but a cold reminder,

Life has been unfair to me.

Wish upon a starry star, to find a plate of empathy.

Understand I mean so much,

My voice it sounds so hollow!

Waking up in agony,

I only live in sorrow.

Picture books are full of drawings,

Abstract ruination.

Colour me in with vitamins and leave me to my ruin.

All I want is everything

And nothing at the same time.

All I want I cannot have,

Or take or even find.

Days like this serve to remind me,

I am but an egg shell.

Swiftly broken pieces swept away,

Nobody to tell.

If only I could start again,

I'd rip this up

And send another swimmer.

This life is broken!

I am not a happy, be-lucky, winner.

Things are not quite as they seem,

When I look in your mirror.

All I see is a reflection of me,

But I am looking thinner.

I don't know which way I chose to go,

Is it up or down?  

I just don't know!

I'm heading for the stars, I couldn't be happier,

I never even tried.

I want to live like I have already died.

Swim with the fishes,

All that I truly know is,

They never seem to cry,

Days are all numbered.

One to ten, and then repeat the process.

I cannot,

I will not,

Vote for a system that is causing distress.

Leave things just as they are

And starve or start a revolution.

All I state is there will be no peace,

Until we build a Freedom.

Creatures only crawl into my mind.

All I do is pass the time,

Selling broken watches,

To all my broken well-wishers, my peeps.

They cannot appreciate,

There is no early,

There is no late,

There is only a right time

And a place to send me,

But I will never tell them;

They couldn't agree.

One day I will find a way to live,

Or find a way to be free…

But today is not that day…

That is all I CAN say...

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