The Paint That Falls

I have tried my best 

to keep this painted on smile

so you think I’m still going stong

you left me once 

for crying too much 

now with no tears

you leave for no reason 

but not feeling the relationship 

the one you missed 

when we were apart

now all this paint 

falls off my face

every tear I held in

As colorful as the last

drop by drop

my fake smile disappears 

more and more 

showing you the truth

you ask why 

I never told you 

why I held it in

all I could say was

i was scared 

of you walking away 

now I’m just sitting here

looking like a fool 

I should have known

by the way you talked

you would never stay 

I should have walked 

I’d rather be broken

before even starting

then travel a while

then be lost a broken 

in a place far away 

from where I was started 

The tears I cry now

will always be showing

for the hole you have left 

will never be filled

i won’t be surprised 

if I find myself lonely 

but at least I can say

my paint is put up

i learned my lesson 

i shouldn’t have to paint a smile

my smile should be there 

because I’m happy 

even if it will take a while 

I’ll let the clock tick

as I walk away 

away from

the fear

of losing you

away from the pain 

i’ve Always felt was coming soon

and away from the mask 

I no longer will wear.

so goodbye 

and I hope

you live well