I'M TIRED

I'm Tired of caring for someone who doesn't care for me.

I'm Tired of sharing my feelings and all i receive is pain.

I get on the game everyday always be feeling the same.
Cause all my friends do is play the game.
All i ever wanted was somebody to talk to about my feelings.
But it seems like i will never find the one.
They say there's somebody for everybody.
But i never had anybody. At this rate i don't think i ever will.

Every night i talk to myself and i ask myself what is wrong with me.

I never get an answer i just wait til i fall asleep.

I'm Tired of pouring out my feelings and always be receiving pain.
All i ever do is find somebody that's not the same.
I am starting to give up on this LOVE thing its driving me insane.
Everyday i always hope i will find somebody.
But everyday i realized that i am living in a fantasy.
Because in reality all i ever find is nobody.

I always get rejected every time i think i have a chance.

I am always left with a broken heart and a low Self-esteem.

I am starting to think love is nothing but a fantasy.

I'm Tired of always being a friend.
thats all people think i am.
Every time i tell her i like her.
She will reject me and that'll be the end.

Sometimes i have a dream that i am in a happy relationship.

i feel so happy like life can't get any better.

Then when i wake up i cry because that feeling i felt was a feeling i never felt.

and sadly i never will.

Sometimes you just got to face facts.
There's not somebody for everybody.
cause if there was i would've had somebody.
but every time im alone.
the only thing i can think of is that i have nobody.

I have decided that i am never going to find a relationship.

cause its not going to happen.

it would've been nice to have somebody.

but too bad that i have nobody.

One night i was thinking of what to do about these negative feelings i felt.
My mom told me "if i ever feel some type of way write it on paper."
At first i didn't no what she meant, but now i understand.
if i didn't express these emotions i would've been more of a broken man.

My Parents are in the process of getting a divorce.
It used to hurt me to know that my parents are seperating.
But now i am numb to the pain.
Even though i think i can't feel pain from it somehow i still think it effects me.

I have had dreams of when my parents were happy.

Then i wake up mad and upset.

I feel like my life is going into a downward spiral.

The negativity overpowers the positivity.

The only thing keeping me sane is appreciating the small aspects of life.

I hope in the future, happiness will comeback into my life.