Memories

i dont know what hurts the most...

the goodbyes that you know are coming..

or the goodbyes that are left unsaid.

i dont know what hurts the most...

him lying and me being clueless..

or knowing the truth and still hearing his lies.

i dont write about the things that make me happy.

i write about the hurtful things...

even when im happy..

i dig deep down into that dark place just to create another story.

once something bad happens to you or your heart gets broken...

it will stay there in your head.

happiness can only last for so long...

but its the bad memories that will be forever told over and over again in so many different ways.

the heart break will stay forever.

you will never forget it!

it will linger...

waiting to be written.

its weird how people ask me whats my favorite memory..

because i always say i dont know ive had alot of happy memories.

we all have thousands of good memories..

but its the bad and hurtful and heart breaking memories that never leave.

its those memories that we can never forget!

even when you thought they were the good memories...

they turn into the most horrific and scarring ones you will ever experience!!

because your thinking to yourself over and over again how happy you were at the time..

while your crying alone in the dark!!..

listening to those certain songs!!

its the good memories that really kill us.

when someone dies its not a bad memory...

its a sad one.

but its the good memories of that person that kills us...

because you never thought they would leave you in that way.

when you love someone and they break your heart..

its the good memories that make you break down!!!..

because during those good times..

the dipshit was cheating and lying to you!!!

over and over and over again and again!!!!!

i just hope "i love you" wasnt one of them...

but to be honest it probably was.

i dont know what hurts the most...

the good memories..

or the bad memories...