If I stay I'll ruin you

If I stay, I will ruin you, my darling.

I shout and Moan and cry all the time.

I've left happiness far behind.

You'll learn to be weak like me.

And so I have to leave you my baby,

I can't have you struggle, you see.

It'll only make you cry.

I cannot stand up tall;

I'm sorry my baby,

I can not be all yours...

it's hard to let you go,

but I can't let you see me fall...

it'll only make you cry.

If I stay, I'll ruin you.

I can't let you see me die.

I pray you get the Mother you deserve...

the mother I could never be.

I don't know if you'll want another, I'm sure life

will make it easier to see.

But if I stay,

It'll only make you cry.

I'm taking with me

all the silent memories

of the short time spent with you,

that makes me smile and feel so true.

I never thought I would feel this blue...

I've always loved you my baby, even before the

start. 

For whatever it's worth,

just know I live somewhere hidden

In your heart.

You're made from me,

But I hope you don't remember Me; It'll only

make you cry.

I'm sorry I won't be there to see you grow...

or when you're no longer a little girl...

for your first kiss or a dance to a slow song.

I'll miss all the important days,

And it'll be all my fault!

I'm sorry my 'babap'

If I stay, I'll ruin you.

And it'll only make you cry.